Updated: Aug 23, 2020
Let's start today off with my personal testimony. I have always had this perception of what my life would be and I have learned that it is okay to not be where you quite saw yourself in life just yet. Because it is all about T I M I N G.
After graduating college, the plan was to move cross country for a broadcasting job and maybe after five years in my career I "saw" myself having a child. But the key to this life is not planning but preparing. Uhhh... did I lose ya'll yet? When you start preparing versus planning you will see things start to change. Also, it never hurts to have just a mustard seed of faith.
I love my journey and I love that I am constantly growing day by day. It is funny because during my journey to motherhood, I heard many discouraging things, such as: "are you sure this is the right time?" or "this is going
to slow you down". But I see it now and then as a blessing and an opportunity for me to grow with my little one to become a better me. I am no where close to perfect and I even doubted myself in the beginning but as long as you continue to prepare for your next season, God will always align you with your path.
Each path is different but the journey to motherhood is something unexplainable, something that I now can not see my life without. There's nothing like the first time you look into your newborn's eyes, for most the connection is instant.
When I first looked into Tristan's eyes, at that very moment I believed that this was my destiny. It was my time and I was ready to fulfill my destiny and immerse myself in motherhood. No matter what others might say about you or the decisions you make. Ultimately, what you think about yourself is the most important thing. I learned that having a baby did not deter me from aspiring to be better.
As my baby nears the 24 month mark I am both sad and filled with joy. I am sad because I want him to stay small forever so I can shield him from this world and also filled with joy because I along with much support from family and friends have nurtured a human being.
I have witnessed him say ma-ma and da-da, crawl and even stumble to walk. I watch him laugh as his smile lights up the room. I will forever be thankful for God blessing me with a true angel.
No one said that it would be easy but it sure as hell worth it!